History Exam 1

So I got to class and we got our tests back. I thought that I had done ok on the test  and I was confident that I would get a good score
(72%) B-
I feel smart!!!!

Math News

So I'm finally almost caught up with my math hours but not so much with the lesson. I'm working hard and with a little more time and effort I think I'm going to pass Math.
Yeah, I need that.

Tired and Slightly Depressed

Recently I've been very tired and because of family matters and internal struggles very depressed.
This is just kinda a update and it apply's for last week as well as weeks to come I'm guessing.

Education+Disney=Nota

There's a video on YouTube called 'After Ever After' by Paint. It's about four of our beloved disney princesses and what happens after their movies end, and if i might add they're REALISTIC.
1. Ariel: Her ocean is poluted, her whale friends are being eating and she really hates the people who are ruining the ocean.
2. Jasmine: Aladdin has been captured and is in Quantanamo bay, everyone thinks she's a terrorist and she's trying to vouch for her people.
3. Belle: She is suspected of being a witch and could be burned at the stake while she suspects Adam will be taken by P.E.T.A (People for the Ethnic Treatment of Animals).
4. Pocahontas: As those of us with a education in Native American history knows she died of a diseasee. Of course the whole story in the movie is wrong, I learned that young because of a movie I had that told the real story. In the video he tells of the horror that the english, spanish and french brought to the Native Americans.
And he does all of these princess impressions to the toons of their popular disney song. Ariel- Under the Sea. Belle- The Morning In The Town. Jasmine- Alliabawa Pocahontas- Colors of the Wind
Its genius and shows how real those issues are in today's world except belle.

My problem with Disney is their inacruecy with their historical stories.
One big example is Disney's Hercules: All those who know Greek Mythology knows its totally wrong, they didn't even mange to get the big details right. For instance Zeus and Hera aren't his parents, he was born half mortal. Zeus and Hadies appearences where wrong too, their youthful. And they got all the history wrong at the beginning. If you watch it when the Muses (correct but there's 6) start their 'gospel truth' mute it because that is all bull shit. Its wrong and after I've teased my friends for hating it I'm on their side now, I HATE THAT MOVIE. Mostly for the inacurecy in the mythology.
Then theirs Pocahontas which I don't watch anymore, but that's for a different reason, because its discusting if you know the real version.
And lets not forget Anastasia which is really,in real life, tragic for those of us who know the truth.
And the problem is that children are being crippled by these mistakes. Children learning about the story of Anastasia are heartbroken when they realize she really died a sad death with the rest of her family. Children will usually fight against the real version of Pocahontas because its so different. And children or teens are just lost on the concept of Hercules in less you've never seen it then you can be salvaged.

Disney is ruining things for children. It's terrible.

Depression Rant

So when I came to college I thought that my life was going to finally take a turn for the better and I was going to have a better happier life, sure I'd struggle for money but I'd meet people I'd hang out I'd be able to be a regular college student and I'd be able to feel alive!
I was so wrong, I do struggle for money, I do meet people, I don't really hang out, I'm not a regular college student and I don't feel alive.
I guess that's what I'm missing is I don't feel alive... why not?

What I really want is a guy to help me feel alive, to help me feel like I'm worth something.... I want to feel like I'm worth something...

That's what's wrong with me...

Sex Education

Lets start with a story.

Once there was a young girl who lived in Utah. She was a well developed teen for her age, and she was beautiful in the eyes of her friends and family. She had a hard life that she was trying to overcome. One october when she was about 11 years old she was at a ward Halloween party. It was great there were sweets, a spooky ally and she was very popular. Then a boy showed up. She knew him from elementary school and he had just moved back. He chased her and when they were hiding from his sister or cousin all alone in the young woman's room he did something inappropriate; he touched her breast. She pushed him back and ran away. Conveniently her mom and sister were down the hall and said it was time to leave she left. On monday at school one of her friends said she'd talked to him he said she'd pushed him, she got angry and told her friend what he'd done. She seemed outraged and the young lady felt violated. A few years passed and she learned that there was a word for what he'd done; molesting. But she never told anyone and even if she had, there was nothing anyone could do about it.

Something like this could happen to someone you know. The young woman in this story has a real hard time with this today, that young woman is me.
I didn't know what had happened to me until all anyone could say about it was "I'm sorry." Or "It happened years ago, let it go."
Educate your children and encourage your friends and neighbors to do so. Don't let your children get robbed of their self confidence, don't let them feel like a piece of junk, let them know it's ok to tell someone and help their friends make that choice if it happens to them.

Maybe one day we'll wake up and find that we all feel better about ourselves.

Time.

You know there isn't enough time in the day to get everything done.
Like; Its the weekend, I want to sleep in. But I've got homework to do. And other stuff like fighting with my laundry. So how does anyone expect me to get it all done?
Plus there's a game today, i think, and im not feeling so hot.

There just isn't enough time in the freakin day!

9/11 Thoughts

I posted a 9/11 picture on facebook yesterday and this morning I woke up and forgot.
When I was walking to the library to study before class there were flags lining the main walkway and voices naming names in the plaza. I had no idea what was going on, not to mention there was some sort of accident our something happening by the campus.
I met up with Karissa and I asked her if she knew what was going on and by the time I reached the opening of the plaza I saw a sign and I shouted "9/11"
It's important to remember 9/11 and the people that died on that dark day in history.

They have out these red,white and blue wrist bands that said 'we remember 9/11'

Oh and i got the gold star in history.

Recent Musical Activity

Even though my preferred music of choice is Country I've been recently interested in fan-music which means people make music about their fandom. (the thing that they are fans of like mlp)
I've become taken with WoodenToaster, and I have been taken with BlackGryphOn for a while as well as The Living Tombstone. And I'm going to try out some other ones.

Along side with that I'm going to try some fanfiction. I'm going to start with 'Friendship Is Witchcraft' its a fanfiction of mlp. We'll see....

My Alter Personality

Ok it's not really a alternate personality.
I'm talking about my love for candy colored ponies. I'm a brony and proud of it but I'm calling it my alternate personality.

For instance, I've got my emails and my one account then I have alternate mlp (my little pony) accounts, emails, YouTube account but I blend my mlp and regular stuff on Facebook.

Me on My Blog

On my blog I will be me.
That's the simplest that I can put it. The following its a statement I'm making:

I, Kirsten Fowler, promise to be myself on my blogs like my 'Kirsten Fowler' blog and this college blog and even my 'wondrous writers' blog. Since I have to pretend and I have to bite back my personality at my grandparents when I lived there, at my college apt, and I don't feel like I can be myself on Facebook so I don't know what everyone thinks but I think I deserve to be myself somewhere.
So if you don't like what I say, don't read it.
Approach this blog with a totally judging attitude because this is where I break out of my polite, people pleasing shell.

There. Now I can be myself. That was liberating.

The Weekend

The weekend was ok. It rained a lot and Saturday there was a flood warning and I got some homework done. I finished Psych on Netflix and I done know what else to watch. I'm catching up on Teen Wolf and I watched a few episodes of H2O- just add water which is kinda lame even though anyone who knows me knows I love mermaids.
There was some family drama this weekend though.... ok more of a internal struggle in my head. I'm not going to say what it was about but by 12:20 I was kinda in a depression... I'm not gonna lie I was really upset. Hopefully I'll be able to cope.

I came back and I kinda feel trapped... Maybe I'm over estimating my situation.

New things- update

So I invested in a new laptop and its working great. I've made rules for it...
1. No eating or drinking near the laptop.
2. 'Each thing has it's folder and the place it belongs'
3. 'You don't have to save every picture you like on facebook.'
4. 'Back up as often and as much as you can.'
That's about it for now.... I'll probably make more in the future.

UPDATE: It's the third week of school and I'm a little homesick... ok a lot homesick. I'm going too be going home this weekend with the gracious efforts of my grandma and mother, possibly my little sister. My room-mates Destyni and Brenna went to comic con yesterday so I had last night to myself. I am hoping to get my l.o.a.n. so that I can have money to live. (And I'm not gonna lie, I'm using 600 of it for my trip to Denver with Linze in October.) I've made a pack with myself: I, Kirsten Fowler, will go swimming ever week on Friday in less I'm going home them I will go on Thursday.
I went last night and I woke up with aching legs. I know why though, I swam a lot just with my legs so I get why.
I'm doing my best to keep up with homework and I'm going to get good grades. Hopefully I can find scholarships for next semester so NO MORE L.O.A.N.S!!! At least that's my hope, along with finding a job.... *rolls eyes*