November 30th/Family

Today I attended my cousin, Evan's, baptism. A little known fact that I found out on Thanksgiving, Evan was born on November 29th one month before mine.
Anyways so I attended his baptism and I watched my little cousins sit at the front of the font to watch him get baptized I realized how fast time was passing, I remember when Evan was just a baby and I loved him. Now he's 8 and got baptized, I'm happy but I'm also very intimidated by the amount of time that is passing so quickly.

I sat in the room with my family and friends of my family and I realized as I was talking to my aunt Kathleen that the next big family event could very well be my wedding. If not it'll probably be another baptism either my cousin Kyle or Abby.

It's refreshing to be around such good influences. After my cousin was confirmed I heard my little cousin who's either 3-4, Stephen, he ran over to the front row and said softly "Can it be my turn next?" I felt like I was gonna cry.

I thought about my baptism and realized that maybe I forgot what it meant to be baptized maybe for a little bit.

But yea that's what I did that day.

Santa Is fallowing me.

It's only been two days since thanksgiving and I've been seeing Santa everywhere.

> My mom and I were on our way home and Santa drive by on a motorcycle and he waved at me.

>My mom and   I were driving behind this really slow person going 5 under the speed limit and when she finally passed him I looked and it was santa.

He's watching to see if I'm being good or bad. I've been good.

Ponies

So on November 29th I bought the Fluttershy build-a-bear. That officially completes my BaB ponie collection.

Thank You

I had to write a thank you but I didn't/couldn't copy and past it on my phone so here's a picture.
Thank you.

History Test 2

I went to class in a terrible nervous state. I thought for sure I was going to fail and my whole class had promised to rise their scores. And only two in the whole class had raised their scores. When he called my name I almost died and I hadn't looked at my score.

74 (B) +2

I almost laughted in relief. If you've seen my last post I got a 72 (B-) and then later when we were going over it I got another +2 for question #50.

I FREAKED OUT!

NaNoWriMo

I'm participating in NaNoWriMo this month.
NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month. Where you write a Novel in the month of November. I'm writing one on a girl with amnesia and I'm really excited.
Wish me luck.

I am a Mythology God

In my 'Myths and Folk tales' class we're having a "war" between the Greeks and the Trogins, and I am the the unbyest score keeper.
Friday the teacher was gone and we had a "sub" and after class I realized that I was just like Hades, Lord of the Underworld. I didn't benefit from either side winning and I didn't really care. I would never get immortalized in kleos either because i didn't really do anything. Like Hades gathered body's and dead from the war so I just gather points not really caring which side wins or not.
My teacher said that he was Zeus mediating between the two teams. That makes me Hades because I benefit either way.

A New Obsession.

So people thought I needed a wider branch of TV favorites. (Besides my current ones like My Little Pony, Bones and Others) So they interested me in Once Upon A Time.

I fell for it. I am now 100% addicted. Soon I'll be writing about a roommate intervention about O.U.A.T. For those who don't know this show it's a show about fariy tales as the title suggests and it can get seriously complicated. It's not the fairy tale world as we think we know it's much more complex. And if I say so myself, I like it better.
My favorite story is Beauty and thBeast(a.k.a BellePiratlestiltskin) IT'S AWESOME!
There's a few characters I cant decide if I like them or hate them. I'm not even sure if they're good or bad. Like Hook. Hottest pirate ever!(Sorry Johnny Depp) But I can't decide if I like him or not.

I'm totally in love with Rumplestiltskin even though he's older. And I'm also going to marry either Baelfire (he is kinda taken though) or I'm marrying Pinocchio (when he's older). I love actors. :)

Belle and Rumple

Pinocchio (August)

Baelfire (Neal Cassidy)

Captin Hook (#1 Best Pirate)

Researching A Sensitive Subject.

So it's time for our long projects to be made in Creative Writing. I ask my roomie Brenna for some advice on writing my long project and she told me I should do some research.

So I did and I found out something, no matter what could possibly happen to me all I want is to know my family is safe and loves me. :)

YES

SPOILER ALERT
Palont DIED. Best episode. They had to kill him!

Homecoming Day

Its the day of homecoming and i feel productive. I slept in then took a shower and waited till it dryed. After it took three people to get me into my dress and time passed it was time to go to the dance.

We had a great time and I think people said my dress was pretty like 8ish times.

History Exam 1

So I got to class and we got our tests back. I thought that I had done ok on the test  and I was confident that I would get a good score
(72%) B-
I feel smart!!!!

Math News

So I'm finally almost caught up with my math hours but not so much with the lesson. I'm working hard and with a little more time and effort I think I'm going to pass Math.
Yeah, I need that.

Tired and Slightly Depressed

Recently I've been very tired and because of family matters and internal struggles very depressed.
This is just kinda a update and it apply's for last week as well as weeks to come I'm guessing.

Education+Disney=Nota

There's a video on YouTube called 'After Ever After' by Paint. It's about four of our beloved disney princesses and what happens after their movies end, and if i might add they're REALISTIC.
1. Ariel: Her ocean is poluted, her whale friends are being eating and she really hates the people who are ruining the ocean.
2. Jasmine: Aladdin has been captured and is in Quantanamo bay, everyone thinks she's a terrorist and she's trying to vouch for her people.
3. Belle: She is suspected of being a witch and could be burned at the stake while she suspects Adam will be taken by P.E.T.A (People for the Ethnic Treatment of Animals).
4. Pocahontas: As those of us with a education in Native American history knows she died of a diseasee. Of course the whole story in the movie is wrong, I learned that young because of a movie I had that told the real story. In the video he tells of the horror that the english, spanish and french brought to the Native Americans.
And he does all of these princess impressions to the toons of their popular disney song. Ariel- Under the Sea. Belle- The Morning In The Town. Jasmine- Alliabawa Pocahontas- Colors of the Wind
Its genius and shows how real those issues are in today's world except belle.

My problem with Disney is their inacruecy with their historical stories.
One big example is Disney's Hercules: All those who know Greek Mythology knows its totally wrong, they didn't even mange to get the big details right. For instance Zeus and Hera aren't his parents, he was born half mortal. Zeus and Hadies appearences where wrong too, their youthful. And they got all the history wrong at the beginning. If you watch it when the Muses (correct but there's 6) start their 'gospel truth' mute it because that is all bull shit. Its wrong and after I've teased my friends for hating it I'm on their side now, I HATE THAT MOVIE. Mostly for the inacurecy in the mythology.
Then theirs Pocahontas which I don't watch anymore, but that's for a different reason, because its discusting if you know the real version.
And lets not forget Anastasia which is really,in real life, tragic for those of us who know the truth.
And the problem is that children are being crippled by these mistakes. Children learning about the story of Anastasia are heartbroken when they realize she really died a sad death with the rest of her family. Children will usually fight against the real version of Pocahontas because its so different. And children or teens are just lost on the concept of Hercules in less you've never seen it then you can be salvaged.

Disney is ruining things for children. It's terrible.

Depression Rant

So when I came to college I thought that my life was going to finally take a turn for the better and I was going to have a better happier life, sure I'd struggle for money but I'd meet people I'd hang out I'd be able to be a regular college student and I'd be able to feel alive!
I was so wrong, I do struggle for money, I do meet people, I don't really hang out, I'm not a regular college student and I don't feel alive.
I guess that's what I'm missing is I don't feel alive... why not?

What I really want is a guy to help me feel alive, to help me feel like I'm worth something.... I want to feel like I'm worth something...

That's what's wrong with me...

Sex Education

Lets start with a story.

Once there was a young girl who lived in Utah. She was a well developed teen for her age, and she was beautiful in the eyes of her friends and family. She had a hard life that she was trying to overcome. One october when she was about 11 years old she was at a ward Halloween party. It was great there were sweets, a spooky ally and she was very popular. Then a boy showed up. She knew him from elementary school and he had just moved back. He chased her and when they were hiding from his sister or cousin all alone in the young woman's room he did something inappropriate; he touched her breast. She pushed him back and ran away. Conveniently her mom and sister were down the hall and said it was time to leave she left. On monday at school one of her friends said she'd talked to him he said she'd pushed him, she got angry and told her friend what he'd done. She seemed outraged and the young lady felt violated. A few years passed and she learned that there was a word for what he'd done; molesting. But she never told anyone and even if she had, there was nothing anyone could do about it.

Something like this could happen to someone you know. The young woman in this story has a real hard time with this today, that young woman is me.
I didn't know what had happened to me until all anyone could say about it was "I'm sorry." Or "It happened years ago, let it go."
Educate your children and encourage your friends and neighbors to do so. Don't let your children get robbed of their self confidence, don't let them feel like a piece of junk, let them know it's ok to tell someone and help their friends make that choice if it happens to them.

Maybe one day we'll wake up and find that we all feel better about ourselves.

Time.

You know there isn't enough time in the day to get everything done.
Like; Its the weekend, I want to sleep in. But I've got homework to do. And other stuff like fighting with my laundry. So how does anyone expect me to get it all done?
Plus there's a game today, i think, and im not feeling so hot.

There just isn't enough time in the freakin day!

9/11 Thoughts

I posted a 9/11 picture on facebook yesterday and this morning I woke up and forgot.
When I was walking to the library to study before class there were flags lining the main walkway and voices naming names in the plaza. I had no idea what was going on, not to mention there was some sort of accident our something happening by the campus.
I met up with Karissa and I asked her if she knew what was going on and by the time I reached the opening of the plaza I saw a sign and I shouted "9/11"
It's important to remember 9/11 and the people that died on that dark day in history.

They have out these red,white and blue wrist bands that said 'we remember 9/11'

Oh and i got the gold star in history.

Recent Musical Activity

Even though my preferred music of choice is Country I've been recently interested in fan-music which means people make music about their fandom. (the thing that they are fans of like mlp)
I've become taken with WoodenToaster, and I have been taken with BlackGryphOn for a while as well as The Living Tombstone. And I'm going to try out some other ones.

Along side with that I'm going to try some fanfiction. I'm going to start with 'Friendship Is Witchcraft' its a fanfiction of mlp. We'll see....

My Alter Personality

Ok it's not really a alternate personality.
I'm talking about my love for candy colored ponies. I'm a brony and proud of it but I'm calling it my alternate personality.

For instance, I've got my emails and my one account then I have alternate mlp (my little pony) accounts, emails, YouTube account but I blend my mlp and regular stuff on Facebook.

Me on My Blog

On my blog I will be me.
That's the simplest that I can put it. The following its a statement I'm making:

I, Kirsten Fowler, promise to be myself on my blogs like my 'Kirsten Fowler' blog and this college blog and even my 'wondrous writers' blog. Since I have to pretend and I have to bite back my personality at my grandparents when I lived there, at my college apt, and I don't feel like I can be myself on Facebook so I don't know what everyone thinks but I think I deserve to be myself somewhere.
So if you don't like what I say, don't read it.
Approach this blog with a totally judging attitude because this is where I break out of my polite, people pleasing shell.

There. Now I can be myself. That was liberating.

The Weekend

The weekend was ok. It rained a lot and Saturday there was a flood warning and I got some homework done. I finished Psych on Netflix and I done know what else to watch. I'm catching up on Teen Wolf and I watched a few episodes of H2O- just add water which is kinda lame even though anyone who knows me knows I love mermaids.
There was some family drama this weekend though.... ok more of a internal struggle in my head. I'm not going to say what it was about but by 12:20 I was kinda in a depression... I'm not gonna lie I was really upset. Hopefully I'll be able to cope.

I came back and I kinda feel trapped... Maybe I'm over estimating my situation.

New things- update

So I invested in a new laptop and its working great. I've made rules for it...
1. No eating or drinking near the laptop.
2. 'Each thing has it's folder and the place it belongs'
3. 'You don't have to save every picture you like on facebook.'
4. 'Back up as often and as much as you can.'
That's about it for now.... I'll probably make more in the future.

UPDATE: It's the third week of school and I'm a little homesick... ok a lot homesick. I'm going too be going home this weekend with the gracious efforts of my grandma and mother, possibly my little sister. My room-mates Destyni and Brenna went to comic con yesterday so I had last night to myself. I am hoping to get my l.o.a.n. so that I can have money to live. (And I'm not gonna lie, I'm using 600 of it for my trip to Denver with Linze in October.) I've made a pack with myself: I, Kirsten Fowler, will go swimming ever week on Friday in less I'm going home them I will go on Thursday.
I went last night and I woke up with aching legs. I know why though, I swam a lot just with my legs so I get why.
I'm doing my best to keep up with homework and I'm going to get good grades. Hopefully I can find scholarships for next semester so NO MORE L.O.A.N.S!!! At least that's my hope, along with finding a job.... *rolls eyes*

Reading

It would seem so easy to have homework where you just have to read out of the book. And for that's the type of homework i like. But Im having a hard time with it. It maybe because I'm taking advantage of my 1 month free for Netflix, but homework should come first right? RIGHT! I just need to get myself together.

I've been saying it for about two weeks now.... "I HATE SUMMER HOLIDAYS." I was doing great, i had a flow spring semester but three summer holidays threw me off. Now I have to find it again.

Decoration

So everyone who knows me knows I love my little pony (mlp) So, I went and did something wackie; I made my roomies a character and we (I) made a collage and put it in the front room of our apartment.

The orange and green is Kylee
The pink blue and green is Kayla
The purple blue and green is Destyni
The yellow pink and brown is me
The purple and blue with green border is Brenna
And the white blue and green is Karissa

My First Post.

This is my first post telling you what this blog is going to be all about.
I need kind-of a outlet that I can just talk (type) and get all my feelings out and onto a page. I'll be talking about class's, homework loads, possible roomie incidents, ranting, or just talking for the most random reason's.
I will try to get Blogger on my phone so I can do it on the go, but I'm not promising anything. I will however post every week even if I don't have anything to post about.

If you want to write me my address is:
Kirsten Fowler
P.O.Box 3378
Ephraim, Utah, 84627

I will try to write back asap but still no promises, school comes first..... always.

First Week

It's been my first week at school and I've made a couple of goals that I'm going to share.
First off I'm taking five class's. 1. Myths and Folk tales at 10-10:50 (M,W,F). 2. American Civilization 11:30-12:20 (M,W,F). 3. Creative Writing 1:30-2:20 (M,W,F). 4. Math 0990 2:30-3:20 (M,T,W,R) 5. Yoga 5:30-6:20 (T,R)
So I've got a good sized schedual. I'm taking some fun looking class's and I'm progressing to get my associetes in English Literature.

Along with my new schedual I've got a new apartment and some new room-mates. (I hope that no one will be offended by me listing them on here.) My roomie her name is Destyni (yes it is spelled like that.) Then next door is my house-mates from last semester Kayla and Karissa Gibbs (their sisters NOT twins.) then in the two single rooms is Brenna and Kylee. I like my roomies a lot and I'm glad that I have people I can get along with.
They are all LDS from what I've gathered which does make it a little ocward because I don't come on out and say that I'm LDS because, as anyone who's seen me with-in the last couple months will learn is I'm in a between stage where I'm kinda LDS but I'm not participating the things that LDS people do.

My first impressions on my class's:
Myths and Folk Tales: 'I really should have taken Mythology in High School.' It's going to be interesting, I'm not totally sure about the homework load since I'm going to be doing a lot of reading. Great!
American Civilization: This is going to be a entertaining class but it's going to be hard for me to focus because this teacher goes on a lot of tangents. I need a refresher to american history.... I forgot a lot of the stuff I learned.
Creative Writing: I'm excited for this one plus I have a friend that is in that class. We're like twins. I'm gonna love this class. It's going to be my best class.
- The Next Day After Math At 5:30 -
Yoga: Man I was looking forward to yoga now I'm thinking it's just gonna hurt... why did I decide to take this? Oh well....

Over the weekend I watched Psych on Netflix that I have free for a month. And the internet prevented me from doing homework that was due by Sunday night. I ordered some stuff online that I needed for class.
But then I realized it's not summer anymore and it's time to focus!